Unmasking the pain of being Molested, She Writes

Thought about you today Neta. Today we are 35 years old, and we will be 36 years old on June 23rd. I’m a mother now, and the children make me so proud to be a mother. I’m not married yet and still waiting for my husband. Before he comes, I pray to have some things dealt with. Stuff like my past and the things that seem to leech itself on me. We’ve been through a lot together. Some things have been more painful than others. But pain is pain either way it hurts. Today, you came to me, and I think it’s time to heal. You're stuck in a place where it’s lonely, and no one sees you, but I feel you. The memories of you come to me some days when I’m doing nothing at all. And sometimes I see you when someone else tells their secrets. I tried to get let go, but the pain gets worse every day. I think it’s time we talked.

Today, I watched a man in a video who happened to be a pastor in a church share that he was molested and penetrated as a young boy. You came to me, and I see you standing there, but I see you laying on top of him.  So, I searched the internet for this God praying bastard because it’s time I free you. My adult me sees you sleep in a bed while the entire house is asleep and him picking you up tiptoeing into his room. I can't seem to save you Neta all I can do is let it play in my head like a movie. It’s dark, and people are there, but no one can protect you. No one knows, and you’re so young that little girl 3 and four years old being molested by a teenage boy practicing on your child life body. I see you still asleep like a person in surgery becoming open to spiritual demons, with invisible wounds that will follow you forever. Your half-awake half asleep, and you can’t run. Your twilight zone is a reality. You cry because it hurts and you’re afraid to scream out loud. Neta I see you, and I can’t save you.

As I sit here seeing this happened to you repeatedly, I feel the pain, and it's hurting me today the same as before. You don’t even know if it’s okay to tell, but you know not to talk. No one can see how afraid you are of him. Remember when you went to school, and they talked about good touches and bad touches? But you still never just said anything. One day you did something shocking, and your mother saw this wasn’t right. She didn’t yell at you but asked what you were doing. What were you doing? You were merely doing what was being done to you. You got on top of that bunny rabbit and laid on top moving your little hips around doing what you were told to do.

Your mother asked you, and you shared but she never questioned you at all. She knew you told the truth. Neta I want you to know you did right by telling and you did nothing to deserve what was done to you. Your mother and grandmother did their best to protect you. I know if they knew he would do this to you and call you his baby sister they would’ve shielded you. Your grandmother wanted you forget about it or wanted to be told you it didn’t happen. Not that she didn’t believe you but because as a black woman your taught never to tell just be strong. Your mother and grandmother sacrificed their lives to protect you and they did well. It’s that don’t talk and tell anyone and be strong so understand now you must break the silence. Know one knew how you were seeing these visuals of you being abused and fondled daily as a little girl.  And no one knew that depression would come in silently and how it would traumatize you throughout your life. It’s invisible pain and now we must expose it. Somewhere in your in your mind, it just seemed to have a place there, and your mind became vexed.

Neta I know you tried to grow up and move on. But the thought of knowing this sick bastard lives his life and gets never to be tortured mentally bothers you.  I have been praying for you Neta, and I have been with you through the years watching you suffer from decisions and having no voice because more demons found you to sexually abuse and emotionally destroy you. The silent little girl Neta remained quite because now who will believe her after more than one lover. The world says shit happens, but this shit keeps taunting your mind. When you did have a chance to choose your first remember the pain of him telling you lied he wasn’t. Your heart crushed I felt it, and you drowned in tears. How could that little girl explain what happened, but you had no idea that this would happen. Life tries to knock you down again and shame you.

Baby girl I want you to know I have come to save you today. I come to set you free. I come to help you share your story. You can now live free. No more pain or shame. You’ve seen much and been through a lot Neta. Today is the day you can come out we have grown together. Wisdom speaks through us now. Neta you are not alone even though its felt this way for years. Sexual abuse has happened to many. Depression, Suicide attempts, shame, humiliation, and pain has tried to stop you. However, you have lived through it, defeated everything thrown your way and survived it all. Break your silence so that you can also break the chains in your bloodline and for others around the world. You have wondered what you would say to this sick bastard who kneels daily lives behind the mask using God’s name. There is this thing called forgiveness and Karma. As much as it may pain you to forgive I need you live I need freedom as well. No need to do anything but become free and each day you live make it your best life. Let your books tell stories from real people and help free others. Remember your motto "Free the minds of the people, and the people will heal”.

My story isn’t anything new but it’s one that stays buried. I stood in the face of my adversities because I needed to live. I was tired of shame beating me and I needed to find the core that kept deep rooting itself inside of me. It wasn’t until I started to unmask myself I realized what I needed to do. I no longer live with the guilt or shame. I turned my hurt into art by using my words writing in journals and expressing myself. Today I what to give others around the world the same chance. I’ve created a space of no judgement with my call for stories Expression Author Your Story. I will allow people to share their stories to inspire others and author their own story. Please share my story in hopes of saving lives.

 

Signed

Unmasked and Unapologetic

Neta Vaught

 

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Surviving The D.A. (Depression and Anxiety)

 

The purpose of this book is to allow individuals to write by using expression without being judged or mocked for their pain. Depression and anxiety is something we know exist, but it's still looked upon as a stigma or a weakness. Within the African American community, this topic runs deep but isn't talked about often. Mental Illness is a topic that many do not like to discuss and is very hard to accept when diagnosed. Inside people are crying for help to either save them from their mental torment or its someone suffering silently with someone who is going through.

Take this journey, as Neta Vaught, a survivor of her depression and life traumas, and having to grow up with a parent with mental illness help allow others to use expression with journal writing to stop stigmas. These individuals will open up about their personal lives about a topic that is sensitive and give inspiration to others. This book has real people writing from deep within opening up about their pain but will provide you with strength. The courage to share with others around the world is bravery in its own self.

Join these brave souls as they share with you, their most in-depth most venerable journal writings about growing up in a home with a parent/ guardian going through a mental illness. And about their own personal experiences living with the D.A. (Depression and Anxiety). They found courage and strength and giving that to the others around the world. It’s time we break generational curses. Remember you have the power to change your life.

While many have been stuck from their pain, Neta Vaught chose to no longer allow the card she was dealt to take over and destroy her life. She chose to stand in the face of her adversities with dignity and grace. Neta Vaught is committed to helping people worldwide to stand in the face of their difficulties and break their silence of the things that have drained them and leaving them stuck. Having dealt with many life circumstances, she wanted to give many an opportunity to use Expression without being mocked or judged for the pain, but also a chance to author their story. In addition to her courage, Neta is the CEO and mogul of Reconnecting Our Communities L.L.C.

Submit Your Story
If you have a story of a breakthrough overcoming life circumstances dealing/coping with depression or any other mental illnesses. Please submit your story to info@reconnectingroc.com.
The types of stories I'm  looking for:
•    Generational curses/ Family
•     breakthroughs
•    Achievements
•    Truthfulness/Honestly and realness
•    How did it impact you growing up
•    Circumstances
•    Community/social changes that helped
•    What was that moment you accepted what was going and did you make changes
•    Reflection thoughts
•    Writing to your pain while allowing the reader to have breakthrough
•    Write to that pain with expression and do not be afraid (Remember write as though your writing in a Journal)
•    Break your silence
•    A message to people who are going through or have gone through and the importance to speak out and get help
•    Traumas
•    Remember you do not have to hold back. Just write freely and truthfully

Stories are selected for:
•    moving emotional content
•    impressive results/achievements
•    inspirational value


Helpful Pointers:
Remember, the more specific you can be, the more the reader will relate to the story and be able to benefit from it. Also, for those who do not understand share with them to become aware, and understand so we can stop stigmas.
•    The ideal length for your WRITTEN STORY should be 500-2000 words, but don't get hung up about range. Make it as long or as short as it takes to tell the story. My editors can edit it if need be.
•    If your story is chosen to publish, I will contact you. Also, I will work with you and my editor will work on polishing it… so don’t worry about it having to be written or told correctly.

Send stories to info@reconnectingroc.com

 

 

Expression (Author Your Story) Call for Stories

I’m currently writing a book entitled “If I Could”  - a collection of real and inspiring stories from people (just like you!) These stories are letters in a journal format to their absent fathers. These journal entries are allowing people to use expression through writing and help others understand the power of journaling to create change and therapy.

The purpose of the book is to inform people about how the immense feeling of being fatherless continues to spread throughout many generations. It causes much guilt, anger, and shame in many lives. Numerous times many have asked that one question, “WHY ME?” It consumes the soul and minds of the fatherless. The anger can cause choices to be made that had some devastating consequences. Then there are those who wished these missing fathers would come and save them from their horrifying circumstances. For many years, we have asked the same question, “How do we fix this problem?”

Take this journey, as Neta Vaught, a fatherless soul, helps lead the fatherless, both men and women to author their story. This epidemic of the fathers being missing is a tragedy, and we must now break the silence. Being fatherless comes in many forms. This book has personal letters that release the pain but will give you strength. The courage to share with others around the world is bravery in its self.

Join these brave men and women as they share with you, letters to their fathers who have either passed on or still alive. These individuals are using expression to inspire others. And give fathers who are not around a glimpse of the reality of what this can do. At the same time, encourage them to build a relationship with their children. It’s time to let go of the pain and end this growing epidemic and move forward. We have the power to change our lives and heal.

While many have been stuck from their pain, Neta Vaught chose to allow no longer the card she was dealt to take over and destroy her life. She decided to stand in the face of her adversities with dignity and grace. Neta Vaught is committed to helping people worldwide to hold in the front of their difficulties and break their silence of the things that have drained them and leaving them stuck. Having dealt with many life circumstances, she wanted to give many an opportunity to use Expression without being mocked or judged for the pain, but also a chance to author their story. In addition to her courage, Neta is the CEO and mogul of Reconnecting Our Communities L.L.C.

Submit Your Story
If you have a story of a breakthrough or a success that you have created as a result of being fatherless. Please submit your story to info@reconnectingroc.com.
The types of stories I'm  looking for:
·         Generational curses/ breakthroughs
·          breakthroughs
·         Achievements
·         Pushing through despite having absent fathers
·         How did it impact you growing up
·         Circumstances
·         Community/social changes that helped
·         What was that moment you said I have to push through
·         Reflection thoughts
·         Writing to your pain while allowing the reader to have a breakthrough
·         If you could send a message or conversation to your absent fathers what would it be. (Remember write as though your writing in a Journal)
·         Break your silence
·A letter to absent father and the need for them in a child’s life
·         Tragedies due to absent father
·         Remember you do not have to hold back. Just write freely and truthfully.
 
Stories are chosen based on:
·         moving emotional content
·         impressive results/achievements
·         inspirational value
.       Transparency and Truth
 Helpful Pointers:
·         Remember, the more specific you can be, the more the reader will relate to the story and be able to benefit from it.
·         Ideal length for your WRITTEN STORY should be 500-2000 words, but don't get hung up about range. Make it as long or as short as it takes to tell the story. My editors can edit it if need be.
·         If your story is chosen to publish, I will contact you. Also, I will have my editors work on polishing it… so don’t worry about it having to be written or told correctly.
 Send stories to info@reconnectingroc.com

The Healing Zone Journal

The Healing Zone was created to help others write and heal. I created The Healing Zone as a safe space. Everyday you will spend time writing and then record your thoughts. Journaling has many benefits and helps with communication skills and depression. Journaling evokes mindfulness, and healing.  It helps with thoughts and feelings to help you understand them more clearly. Order your copy today and start journaling . My motto is "Free the minds of the people, and the people will heal".  For support before and after purchase #thehealingzone. Click the link to order https://www.amazon.com/Healing-Zone-Neta-Vaught/dp/1977765866/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1507463013&sr=8-1&keywords=neta+vaught

Conversations with Neta Vaught

Conversations with Neta Vaught

May is Mental Illness Awareness Month. This stigma must end!  To my wounded vessels, you're not alone. Reconnecting Our Communities LLC was build from pain to purpose. Neta Vaught saved herself to help others please share her story of triumph.

Neta Vaught is the creator and founder of Reconnecting LLC and Uniquely Imaged. She dedicated to removing the stigma of mental illness and bring people to positions of empowerment through the program. Our focus is on helping people to become free of hurt, doubt, and fears that come from depression and other mental health disorders. We are here to say, that it is okay to get help and voice when something isn’t right within ourselves. We help educate people on traumas that are associated with different experiences in life and learn positive ways to deal and cope. By breaking our silence about many of the devastating emotions that we feel, we can learn to be more free as people and a community.

https://www.netavaught.com

Instagram:@NetaVaught

 

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